being a attractive female cop
(south Carolina )
being a female in this work force is hard, but its worth it. when i joined, i was so shy and quiet. the guys always picked on me because i couldn't raise my voice unless you really pissed me off. i've actually lost my voice because my trainer made me yell and scream in a scenario, we were doing for domestic violence. i grew up in an abusive home and have gone through hell to get to where i am today. i was always a quiet kid and was afraid of older people. i am starting to get over that, it takes time. my trainer and fellow partners in law enforcement, like to put me on the spot a lot (to help me get out of being shy and afraid). it has helped and im starting to see a change. im 5'7, blonde, blue eyes, skinny, and my race is white. the people i work with find me attractive which is a problem because they get off focused. it bothers me because i want them to be able to focus without me being center of attention. im not going to lie, i love the attention the guys give me, but it gets old and annoying. i asked my trainer, what he thinks about me being on S.W.A.T. , and he laughed and gave me this look like "there will be drama". i am confident that i can do it. i went to a female cop about this and she said " think about it, being the only girl on S.W.A.T., the guys are going to feel like they have to protect you, they will also, fight over you." (they are already very overprotective of me). that really got me thinking, but i still want to do it. i just need advice. if someone can help me, please comment your email. my goal is to be on S.W.A.T. (i chose a different name and state so i can protect my identity, but i am from the USA).